Veronica's Entry: On Men // 18 Aug 07

Adam finally verbalized that he thinks that he's the MAN and I as the WOMAN am below him. He kept instigating an arguement, until I brought up a solid point of how he was blatantly and embarrassingly wrong. At which point he would say "I don't know why you keep arguing with me, Veronica."

Most of our fights are based on his total bullshit. This one takes the cake. The false premise is so thick you could cut it with a chainsaw. You'd have to because that shit's too dense for knives. The German foreign exchange student that stayed with my aunt said it succinctly and perfectly, "Men are boys."

They're fucking children but they get paid more, because they're just too annoying to actually hold a decent argument with (see: judges and police officers).

Part of me really thinks it's the heat. When the weather is 110, there's obviously going to be some negative effects on neural processes. Like, his driving has gotten rather bad. I grit my teeth and sink my nails into the door arm rest. Sometimes I inadvertently ...yeah I don't know how to spell it, but it's the sound of inhaling when you see something scary or bad about to happen, it would have a lot of H's and U's in it. Or maybe some odd German letters.

He's threatening about breaking up. This is getting so fucking old. Let's just fucking admit already, that this is nothing more than being manipulative.

Yesterday was pretty good, little to no fighting. Today was a spillover of the peace, until he got upset over a game we were playing. His latest Man>woman tirade really disillusioned/jaded me a bit though. You're guess at how this plays out is as good as mine. My bet is on him apologizing by tomorrow and things being all lovely again. Simply because this seems to be a common theme. Unless he reads this. Then he isn't simply out of being a fucking stubborn Ox. (He is a Taurus, not that I actually ascribe to that stuff).

22:20

He's still just as jack-assed, but now with twice belligerent and selfish!! Yeay! OMFG someone euthanaise me.

19 Aug 07 17:29
Things are still stupid. We went to Pita Pit today and that was really nice, because for $4.00 I get a lot of really tasty veggies in a tasty sauce and wheat wrap. It's ace. After that the deterioration of the day that was holding such a positive hope of happiness began. This shit totally sucks. He still won't admit that saying "I'm only in this relationship for you" is really insulting, demeaning, and offensive. Not to mention incredibly hurtful. I've tried to seek an ounce of reassurance that this was just a drunken thought crime, but current efforts have been futile. I guess its really over and that kills me, just typing that makes my eyes water. But he wouldn't give a shit about that even if I told him to his face, so it's obviously not going to work out. You can't have a compassionate relationship when the reciprocating person isn't compassionate. It's like trying to debate Science with a christian fundamentalist. Shit just isn't going to work out. As heart-breaking as it all is. I feel like crying now but I'm not going to give him that satisfaction. 18:30 - same day I'm watching a torrent of Conan on 02 Aug, w/Ann Hathaway. I love both of them because they made the first reference I've heard in at least 5 years, to the show Get Smart. I used to watch this show when I grew up in various basements throughout the Chicagoland Area with my parents, almost religiously, and eventually the stable establishment in Lombard. Simply hearing reference too it was enough to prompt me to write about it. For anyone trying to socioanalize me that show is a brilliant start. I rememember the family we lived with in Elmhurst (the mother, my god-mother) would watch it and we (my family and I) would to. And her son and I would play Maxwel Smart and Agent 99 ALL THE TIME. Like I remember running around rooms hiding from people Evem after we moved away, I still kinda taped this past experience, like when my childhood friends and I were playing spy. You can't tell me you grew up and didn't play spy games. I guess I don't know where I was going with this, but I like Ann Hathaway now, simply because she's playing Agent 99. Sounds like a good enough resolution to a rant, for me.

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